Wow, I feel like I haven’t blogged in so long! There has been so much that has happened with us since my last post.
It seems like God asks me to write about something and then challenges me to see if it’s true! After sharing my heart regarding adoption and how I long to live a selfless, serving life, God brought an incredible opportunity our way. These past couple weeks we have been able to help my sister and my nephew by bringing them into our home indefinitely. At first there were so many unknowns. My sister wanted to turn her life around, but there were a lot of factors that could stop her from staying and confronting some of the issues in her life. Miraculously, God has done an incredible work of restoration in less than a week! My sister is a completely new woman with joy, hope and purpose. I’ll leave the details of her amazing story to her to tell.
I’ve managed to snatch a few minutes alone tonight for the first time in what feels like forever. Sitting in my quiet living room, the lights of the Christmas tree shining brightly and the dishwasher humming softly, I’m in awe of the work God’s actually doing in my heart. I say actually because I always find in the middle of Him doing work in me, I don’t often realize that He is. Starting really when Caleb was born I feel like my selfishness has been being exposed.
I was used to having Andrew all to myself for almost a year, my time to myself and my life really the way I wanted it. We were used to two incomes and just the expenses of a carefree newlywed couple. I don’t feel like we were careless with our money, but if we wanted to get up and go for breakfast, we didn’t think much of it! Now, leaving anything to do with finances aside, we have to decide if it’s really worth going out of the house with an active six month old simply to eat. Most of the time it’s “nahhh….let’s just stay home!”
I feel like where I am at today has made me so appreciative of every little thing we do. Each trip out is special, each coffee is a treat, and these treasured silent moments are breaths of fresh air, especially with two busy babies in the house now. Oh how much I took for-granted before.
I have also tried to start making a lot more things myself. To anyone who knows me well, stop laughing! I know I’ve said forever I am not artistic or crafty. But, thanks to Pinterest, I’ve been learning just how easy some of the things that I usually run out and buy are to make. Time might be a little shorter, but I’m finding it quite rewarding. I feel like God has challenged me that if I really want something, I need to look at what I already have and see how I can transform, improve and refresh it to become something of greater value and beauty.
And this mindset is transferring to people. Ok, don’t take this too literally. No analogy is perfect. However, I do see that when I choose to invest in someone I can see the Lord work through me to bring transformation, improvements to their character and refreshment to their spirit. I’ve said this over and over, but I pray so much that our home will be filled right up with peace. Many people have said to me that when they walk in they feel relaxed and renewed. I thank God that He will not only use me to renew purpose to old objects, but also to instill hope and faith into the hearts of others.
As I’ve been doing these things, I feel like I myself have been shown glimpses of my value in the eyes of Jesus. I can honestly say I am feeling more beautiful everyday. I think as your heart becomes lighter and you see purpose and potential in literally everything around you, you see it in yourself. And how can that not make your smile just a little brighter?
Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord. May Jesus give you a heart to see potential in those around you, and in yourself. May you see your purpose through the eyes of the one who gave His life to give you life. May you accept the freedom you have been handed.
Love and blessings to you all! I am humbled by the people who take the time to hear what’s going on in my life. Thank you!